Lie Down and Surrender

#betweenmeditations

My progress in meditation starkly contrasts with the rest of my life. I am unwell, my daughter is coughing and not attending nursery, things are getting worse at work, and I missed an exam in astrology school.

Panic and despair overwhelm me. I feel on the brink of catastrophe. Sometimes I just want to lie down on the floor and surrender. But I forbid myself and fight the chaos with my last ounce of strength.

I do not yet know that the next meditation will turn my life upside down once and for all, and nothing will ever be the same for me again.