Weakness

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Hello) I have run into some difficulties. On Monday I felt I needed to take a break, but on Tuesday the feeling didn't go away and, for some reason, it became very difficult to find an opportunity for meditation: as soon as I try to withdraw and settle myself, my daughter finds me and starts standing on my head) When I do manage to carve out the time and place, I fall asleep when I try to enter meditation. Meanwhile, during the day a kind of murky melancholy and a fear comes over me — that I won't be able to do it any more, or even that what I experienced before was simply a product of my imagination. I know that's not true; I understand that I am being attacked by clearly malevolent forces, but I can't manage to cope with them, and I don't know what to do. Have you ever had anything like this? How can I overcome this weakness?

And one more thing — simply writing this to you and sending it felt like lifting a heavy weight.